This my friends is an example of a negative pregnancy test. Don’t squint or stare. That glaring expanse of white will burn your eyes and harm them indefinitely akin to “Surfer Eyes.” How do I know this? I am both an infertile with bad eyes, and I used to live in Surf City USA.
So, where to next? I guess on to my third Femara/trigger/IUI cycle. I’m not so broken up about this one. Last month was such a shit show that I am relieved that it is unequivocally negative. None of this kinda sorta maybe chemically pregnant bullshit. That sucked the soul out of me. Nothing like feeling and thinking you are pregnant for 36 hours to watch it all drain away. Onward.
Now, all I need to happen is for my period to start today or tomorrow. Don’t worry, Team. I will be pulling out all the tricks to get it started again. See, my doctor is moving offices, and tomorrow is the last day he is seeing patients until November 6th. Well, patients that don’t need to be seen anyway. I’m hoping he is going to squeeze those currently moving through an IVF cycle into his busy moving schedule. Unfortunately, I fall into the former camp.
I don’t want to take a cycle off. Maybe if I tell him that I really, really, really want an August 2013 due date he will concede. That would be fabulous. I figure I have two cycles to go in order to give birth before I turn 34. I started this journey three months past my 31st birthday. Oh, how time flies. I was aiming to give birth when I was 32. That’s funny.
It’s a long road. I’m glad you are dealing so well with this negative, I know they are always hard. I am sending all the good stuff I have in me your way for your next cycle. Want me to call the doc and make a case?
Ugh. Sorry for the BFN.
I hope that you can get your period started stat (lots of sit-ups??) and that your doctor will see you and agree to not make you take the next cycle off. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way.
Sorry about the BFN
Sorry lady. It’s always like a sucker punch.
Sucky sucky sucky, so sorry.
Eff it. That sucks lady.
Crap. Time flies, that’s for sure. So hoping you don’t need to wait a month to start the next one.
Sorry… Like you, on my last BFN I was relieved it wasn’t a dubious chemical pregnancy or, worse, m/c. Start over, from scratch, it’s all possible, again. Here we go!
I’m gonna drop kick that negative in the face.
Onwards and upwards, m’lady. 2013 is our year.
Big old suckiness. Sorry, but I hope AF gets going ASAP…
Blah and boo and all the other things everyone else said above. Totally sucks every time.
Sorry, sweetie! Next round is yours!
Sorry to hear about your BFN. Seeing only stark white SUCKS.
So so sorry hun. I just hate this for you. Really hoping for the next cycle.
I hate those pink tests. Always mocking me. When we first started trying I bought the economy pack of OPKs and it came with a few of those pink tests. I remember thinking, when it all arrived, what a waste it was to buy all those tests, but it was cheaper than buying a couple of months supply. (A waste because I was obviously going to get pregnant right away.) Ha ha ha ha. I’m already on my second economy pack.
I’m so sorry – BFNs are so hard and trying to figure out schedules around RE’s schedules suck! Everyone should drop everything and do everything they can to get ME pregnant. I’m not kidding. Hang in there – hugs.
Oh, I’m so sorry. I hope you get to try again next cycle.
I’m so sorry
Abiding with you.
Boo. Hiss. Boo.
Tell that doc you have the entire Internet behind you pressing for an August 2013 due date … so he’d better fit you in this next cycle!